I have always had a bit of an addictive personality it’s not something I’ve really given too much thought about if I’m honest but I get stuck on an idea or even a thing and it too quickly becomes all consuming.
Whether that be reading where I would start a book and not be happy until I had completed it and then have a sense of dread as I’d have nothing to read immediately after, I would have a new book ready but it wasn’t that book which I’d just enjoyed so much. Instant regret would then follow, why hadn’t I limited myself to a few pages at a time, a chapter a day perhaps then I could have stretched out the enjoyment?
Reading has been replaced these days by TV, always too tired to reach for the written words but of course just an excuse used by myself, if I tell myself I’m too tired to read I’ll believe it but actually I’ve just fallen out of love with it. Over indulged in the good reads and now stuck for the next fix.
TV has replaced this old love but with the same over indulgence reading once had, I find a new show I enjoy and am not happy until I’ve binge watched the whole series and then once again have that sense of instant regret….was there any need to watch all 13 episodes in a week and now be left channel hopping for another fix to fill this gap?
Of course not.
It’s the same when I open that bottle of Prosecco on a Friday night alone (or on a weekday with my sister), one glass would be sufficient, I’ve got to get up early the next day but it goes down too well and before I know it I’m pouring the final glass.
If I get into a mood I pull out all the cupboards and sort through them, bags of rubbish disappear and a mass declutter happens. Don’t get me wrong I’m not OCD about cleaning at all…….the complete opposite in fact but when I do get a good run I can whizz though at an amazing rate sorting through the bathroom cabinets in a rage because I couldn’t find the razor or bubble bath I was looking for. Clothes will be sorted and the kids rooms usually take the full brunt of this tidying purge.
There just seems to be no inbetween with me at times…its all or nothing.
Binge Binge Binge